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December 2004
Wed, Dec. 22nd, 2004 10:09 pm

That's my new journal..
or well..has been my new journal since september.

add it.


Sun, Sep. 26th, 2004 09:14 pm
After 1,761 entries..i'm done with this bullshit.

k bye.

Current Mood: indifferent indifferent
Current Music: All Around The World- Oasis


Sat, Sep. 25th, 2004 10:55 am
Why didnt I get over Alex sooner?
fuck that whole "I know I made plans with you to go see Garden State but i'm going to the beach with my gay(and by gay i mean homosexual) friends."
It took meeting someone new to make me realize how stupid I was being over him.

also fuck Boost Mobile. I don't get signal ANYWHERE. It's only good for text messaging.

While i'm at it..fuck the word 'HATE' because it's nauseating and overused. I don't hate ANYONE. NO matter what they've done to me, i can't hate anyone.
I'm not mad at anyone, either.
So stop.

I'm on a roll.

Current Mood: annoyed annoyed
Current Music: Rhyme & Reason- Dave Matthews Band


Thu, Sep. 23rd, 2004 12:04 pm
Brief update:
+i'm not dead
+i love my job more than i should.
+met a new boy. he's super rad. He asked me on a date. he is called Jason. Damon is still my loverrr though. Because he is drrty.
+jamers is awesome!
+Garden State is the most amazing movie I have ever seen. The soundtrack is amazing as well.
+Cat Stevens is a terrorist? what?
+I'm busy
+i don't care.

Current Music: Hear Me Out- Frou Frou


Sun, Sep. 19th, 2004 11:03 am
When I first woke up this morning..some song by Train was playing on the radio..then it cut out and Just Like Heaven by The Cure came on..then out of no where Alex text messages me..that was the weirdest thing ever.

Then I talked to Damon on aim mobile for like an hour when I should have been out of bed and getting ready for the day

Now I have to rush to make the 1:20 showing of Garden State..yay for the GET bus.
Thanks Damon.

Current Mood: cold cold
Current Music: the radio


Sat, Sep. 18th, 2004 04:12 pm
I just talked to Alex for over an hour.
He apologized for everything.
And yeah..it was sincere. I could tell.
I started to hear him cry..his voice got all weird. I started crying too. We're both very emo.
We talked about everything.
We plan to hang out soon...because for once i'm the busy one who never has time for anything.
I missed him.
More than you'll ever know.

Today is a beautiful day. It's only 80 right now.

I'm going to go play some guitar then take a nap.

Current Mood: drained drained
Current Music: There Is No If...-The Cure


Sat, Sep. 18th, 2004 10:20 am
Last night was amusing. Jamers calls me at like 9:45 wanting to know if I want to hang out since it was Stephen's last night in Bakersfield...so of course I say "Heck yes!". So we leave my house and head to the gas station. We literally sat there for 20 minutes trying to figure out something to do. We ended up going to some party that ended up being lame as hell. But the alcohol was yummy and I drank a little. It doesn't take much to get me buzzed so I did. When we were dropping off stephen and stephen and jamers were both outside..i was trying to explain something to Haley about the window and it wasn't coming out right. I felt like shit too..so I just laid down in the back seat. I came home and got online and talked to Damon..i probably wasn't making much sense. I stayed up talking to him until i didn't feel all weird anymore and went to bed.

Alex just text messaged me. I started crying. We're supposed to talk today. I miss him something awful.

Current Mood: awake awake
Current Music: Let It Be- The Beatles


Sat, Sep. 18th, 2004 12:06 am
tipsy to the max

cant really form sentences very well.

and i only drank a little.

im a roookie.

the party we went to was lame. Stuck up people on the west side. bitches.

i hope the old people dont try and talk to me.

Current Mood: drunk tipsy


Fri, Sep. 17th, 2004 07:37 pm
I did something stupid today. While at KC's Steakhouse with Jamers..I called Alex. Of course he didn't answer..but I just had to. I wish I could just be like any other normal human being and just let go; be done with it. For some reason I just can't. I didn't call him for 3 days. That's a record for me. I miss him like crazy and I just wish he'd answer his phone.

I might be going to Riverside with Jamers tomorrow. Stephen is leaving for UC Riverside tomorrow and she wants to go and doesn't want to go alone. So I offered to go with her. She's still waiting for her parents to give her an answer before we know if we're going or not. Nevermind.

I'm really sleepy.
Damon's pirate jokes kept me awake during work. Arrrrr.

Onions are foul.

Current Mood: cold cold
Current Music: the cure....of course


Thu, Sep. 16th, 2004 08:38 pm
Why Can't I Be You?- The Cure
you're so gorgeous i'll do anything!
i'll kiss you from your feet
to where your head begins!
you're so perfect!
you're so right as rain!
you make me
make me hungry again

everything you do is irresistible
everything you do is simply kissable
why can't i be you?

i'll run around in circles
'til i run out of breath
i'll eat you all up
or i'll just hug you to death
you're so wonderful!
too good to be true!
you make me
make me hungry for you

everything you do is simply delicate
everything you do is quite angelicate
why can't i be you?

you turn my head when you turn around
you turn the whole world upside down
i'm smitten i'm bitten i'm hooked i'm cooked
i'm stuck like glue!
you make me
make me hungry for you

everything you do is simply dreamy
everything you do is quite delicious
why can't i be you?
why can't i be you?
why can't i be you?

you're simply elegant!

I love the Cure so effing much.

Nothing at work went right today. The printer jammed..three times. The copier jammed...the power went out for like a second and my computer restarted and i had to re-do e-bills. I was late to work this afternoon because my grandpa went to my work instead of school to pick me up. I was like 20 minutes late, luckily my supervisor didn't care. Tomorrow I have to enter 60 new patients into the computer and that'll take me like a good 3 hours. Agh. But I love my job. I'm amused by the stupidest things there. Kathleen's laugh for example. She sounds like a hyena. Jamers and I are convinced that Sheila does coke in the bathroom. haha. It's great.

I bought a sweater at old navy because it's freezing in my classes and at work. Jamers and I had fun at the mall..and we had chinese food..mmm. I licked the napkin and laid it at the edge of the table and the waitor came by and picked it up. I about lost it. I was laughing SO hard.

My horoscope for today:
Suddenly, miraculously, everyone is in a wonderful mood again -- especially you. It's like the tensions of the last few days never happened, isn't it? You can let it all go. It's over.

Did I mention how much I love The Cure??

Current Mood: bouncy bouncy
Current Music: Why Can't I Be You?- The Cure